Tuesday, January 27, 2009

I am back......sort of.

For those of you who don't know I was once Anonymous or better yet anonymousandloving. I left that blog for this one. That's a whole boring story but I won't bore you with that when I can bore you with this.

I know you are asking yourself (all 2 of you) " Where have you been?" I have debated whether or not I was going to tell this story and decided it may be good for the soul.

At the end of September I lost my job of 14yrs. I didn't see it as too much of a problem until the economy went totally ape shit and now finding a job in my field seems more and more like a long shot. Anyway, if being unemployed wasn't enough, my wife was pregnant with our 4Th child. She was not doing well and bleeding everyday so she had to go on bed rest. So being unemployed turned out to be a positive. I could take care of the house and the 3 others (7,3 and 2 yrs respectively) while she took care of herself. (In a manner of speaking)

Fast forward to January;

Without giving you a bunch of medical stuff, the baby was growing and doing what it was supposed to do but everything else was going wrong so my wife was hospitalized. And then, after a week there was no amnio fluid around the baby. My wife's water didn't break there was just no fluid and after a few days we learned the baby wasn't making more.

Fast forward more;

My wife began to hemorrhage.

23 weeks old, not good. No amnio fluid, not good. Low fluid since week 9, not good.

She was born in January. She couldn't take a breath.

10 stubby fingers. 10 stubby toes. 2 eyes, 2 arm 2 legs.

She was cremated on Monday.

We called her Grace Ann.


Gwen said...

I am so sorry for your loss. She had a beautiful name and a family that loved her very much. I am thinking about you and hope that telling the story eased your pain.

Wilwarin said...

i am so sorry, that brought tears to my eyes. i hope you and your wife are doing ok. she did have a beautiful name.

Dr Zibbs said...

Sorry to hear the news.

LegalMist said...

I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine how hard that must be.